personal & design

Read Highlight:

How To Cook perfectly Boiled Egss

Subscribe my blog

Leaving 2017

21 . 01 . 2018

Hi everyone. So today I need to study 13 chapters straight because Ive been pocrastinating for several days without realizing that my next paper is just in two days ๐Ÿ™ƒ But I feel the need to update one entry before I start studying.

Today's entry gonna be a little bit personal but I'm sharing it with you guys anyway.

1. Getting the lowest gpa I've ever get in my life.

Yes. This happened to me. Yes, I've been through the phase where I sit down, trying to study but I just can't think of anything. My mind goes blank. And I literally keep changing my position from the desk to the bed and vide versa for few hours straight trying to study. Due to problems that I had before(where I thought my world is falling down and I thought I can't get out from it) I was not even committed to the assignments given and my carry marks was very low too. Alhamdulillah, thing goes well now as I am okay and study well even now (procrastination is the next problem haha).

2. Recalling my birthday

Not going to forget my bff's efforts to surprise me on my birthday!I don't have any photos in my phone now so I screenshot this photo from my Instagram ๐Ÿ˜‚ View the whole appreciation post here!.

3. I learned basic makeup

Told you guys that I always wanted to learn makeup. I actually did try wearing makeup and wearing basic (which is not as basic as before) makeup on daily basis now. Lol. I put on thick foundation, do my eyebrows, put on obvious blusher and lip matte, and playing with contour. I want to learn more but I don't have money to buy makeup so 2017 is just until this level ๐Ÿคจ

4. Getting a new spec

Almost forgot about this one. I recently got a new spectacles but to be honest I'm not sure I should regret it or not. At first I thought the spec is okay and nice but people around me said that the spec make me looks nerdy and not okay ๐Ÿคจ My boyfriend told me that the spec is fine but I can't really tell.

Okay I'm just gonna fix my old specs so that I can use both for different occasions ๐Ÿ˜‚

5. My powerbank died

Is this important?? Yes! Because I've been using my white and big Pineng powerbank for almost 4 years already and finallyyyyy it's not functioning anymore lol. So I got a new one from my mum........... lol ๐Ÿ˜‚ #AnakHabiskanHarta

6. I registered for br1m

lol i actually did this ๐Ÿ™ƒ after kerajaan won't give me kad pelajar 1 malaysia whatsoever tu I've decided to keep being mad sebab dulu Baucar Buku Satu Malaysia tu every student dapat kot!?!! Nak beli buku kot??????? Nak spent kat MPH KOTTTT?????Banyak novel hantu tak dapat beli kot?????! Dapat tengok title je kot???!!!!!

7. Highlight of the year: I went to Segamat, crying.

I never really want to recall this shit but BROHHH THIS IS THE BIGGEST AND THE MOST DESPERATE THING IVE DONE IN MY WHOLE LIFE. Listen future Wana, if you do this again, please just randomly kick your own self.

I was so desperate, getting news at 6, asked for my friend's help to drive me there. I have 0 money in my purse so I lied to get money there. I still won't confront my parents for it and I hope no one that know me personally ever read this please.

Is the drive worth it? Yes. I learned something.

After 7 points, I'm not sure what else in 2017 to recall for. 2017 has been a very tough year for me but 2017 was also where I think I should put a full stop to all the grieves, anger, hates, rages, and all the negativity inside me. I LEARNED A LOT IN 2017 and I swear my mental is just used to it now. Right now I just hope that I can be happy and that's all. I don't mind not having money not having delicious food to eat or not able to wear prettily but one thing that I really wanted is to be happy and kind Wana. That's it.

2017 was great. In clonclusion.

Shazwana, 22 on 7th May. I aspire to be the most positive person on earth. Please join me!

Find Me


Search this blog